Well-Wishers

   Mom seems to be doing okay at home. And be okay I mean still needing 24 hour care, so not great, but okay.



   I think people are under the impression this will change and get better. That’s what they tell me, “It will get better Gina.” Uhm….no. No, it won’t. Thanks though. We already know the only thing that may improve is her strength. People don’t want to comprehend that something can go bad and never get good again. But this is one of those times. I guess I can’t be mad at them for being optimistic.


   That’s the other thing people tell me, “You need to have good outlook and pray and wish for the best, because sometimes people can prove those doctors wrong.” So you want me to delude myself and tell myself Mom is fine and she doesn’t have problems? And if I am “positive” that will magically heal her cancer? Oh, that’s all I was missing: false hope. Thanks so much!


   Let me inform you of what exactly it is that she needs. Money and love. Money for therapy, speech, occupational, and physical therapy. Money for chemotherapy. Money for a day care service and money for her drugs. We got the love covered, but we have no money.


   Some of these people who are telling me to be positive gave money to my mom’s fundraiser, so I can’t point a finger at them for not helping, but don’t give me that wishful thinking crap. I don’t agree with that at all. Because when this cancer takes her life, I don’t want to be surprised and say, “But I was positive, so how did this happen?” Get real! Cancer is chowing down on her brain while people tell me to pray about it.


   I think maybe people just don’t want to acknowledge bad things in this world. Or, as a complete opposite, maybe people are too prideful to admit your problems are more massive then theirs. “It’s not so bad Gina, I have real problems.” Right.


Only realistic solutions will help, and the doctors are running low.